After the sorrow of 2004, I had hopes for 2005 to be a better year. Although the year began with promise it slowly spiraled into a series of lows and I thought we would never see happiness again.
At times it almost felt like I could just re-post my 2004 year end entry.
"I'm sure there may have been some good things about the year 2004, however none come to mind. There's no doubt that this has been a particularly difficult year for me and my family, and I am relieved that it is coming to an end..."
However there are new beginnings, a glimmer of promise... and small miracles.
Christmas was so different from any other year. Old traditions are no more. My brother is with us in spirit only. We spent the day in a new home my mother had just moved into 10 days previous. My father came, via an Access-a-Bus from the nursing home where he is living.
Dad has been working very hard since he moved to the nursing home 2 months ago. He had a goal. He told the Physiotherapist he needed to be able to walk up a set of 10 stairs and then to use his walker for at least 30 metres. So they practiced every day 16 stairs up, 16 stairs down. Each day he used his walker to go down the hall to breakfast, lunch and supper in the dining room. Some days he would walk to the lobby with the assistance of the nurses. Every day he practiced. He had a goal you see.
On Christmas day, although he arrived in his wheelchair, he walked un-assisted up the 4 stairs to the new house. He walked across the deck with his walker into the house. We toured all the rooms of the new house. He walked to the living room and sat in a chair by the Christmas tree. We toasted the day with wine. We ate our Christmas meal at the dining room table, all seated in regular chairs. We remembered Christmases past. When it was time for Dad to leave and go back to the nursing home he walked to the door, across the deck, and walked down the 4 stairs from the house to his waiting wheelchair.
Dad & Mom with their dog Lady.
Dad with my dog Holly.
Small miracles can happen. If you want something intensely enough, work hard to achieve your goal, your wish may come true. Determination can change the course of a life.
My wish for this year is renewed hope and confidence. Again this year as with last year I think the Queen's Christmas message for 2005 sums this up very well.
On the East Coast as 2006 arrives I'll be wishing on a star.